The last four months have been a rollercoaster of events in my personal and professional life. I like things organized and done in a particular order, which often leaves me wanting to control things. Letting go of control can be challenging at times. I am guilty of saying things like, “I don’t trust anyone to get it done,” “I don’t need help,” and “I have everything under control.” I can struggle when things start to go awry and out of my realm of influence. I am sure many can relate. In the last couple of years, so many things have been beyond my control. Instead of being frustrated with my lack of control, I began to surrender more and allow the chips to all where they landed. 

In the last couple of weeks, not only have I surrendered the things out of my control, but I have also come to a place of acceptance. Webster’s dictionary defines accept as “to endure without protest or reaction.” I have stopped protesting about certain things or reacting emotionally. It has provided me with a sense of peace. I know that I will be okay no matter what may be happening around me. This understanding is a walk of faith. Strong faith allows me to accept the season God has destined me to be in. 

I have accepted the challenging people that I work alongside. I accept that some people cannot give me what I need. I accept my body and that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I accept the friendships and relationships that have shifted over the years. I accept the journey that I am on. 

The more I tried to control things, the more out of control I felt. I wanted certain things to be exactly how I wanted them to be. I would be disappointed when things did not go my way. God has helped me change my need for control through the many experiences I have gone through. 

God wants us to relinquish control because He is the ultimate controller. He has it all in his hands. Knowing that God has me in the palm of His hand gives me peace in each season. I am embracing being right where I am supposed to be. So now, I remind myself that God is in control, and I trust Him with all my needs. The more I trust, the more I accept where I am and feel more at peace.